Okay so I have a week off of school, and not much to do anymore, so I suppose I'll get up off my lazy bum, get out of bed, and I'll gradually start adding some of my school work from the past year (I've just finished my first year in college, golly gee wilikers!), in between packing, cleaning, and moving. That way inboxes wont be spammed. too much.

Sound good? Yea? No? Well, I'm going to do it anyway.

So since my last journal entry from an entire year ago (plus two days) I have NOT put up any of my really old unfinished works that I said I would find and finish, because... I've been busy with my school work, and... well, I've lost them again.

BUT! There will be new stuff up, including some of my school work from this past semester that I have yet to upload... If I stop being lazy and ever get to it.

I have a LOT of things that I've started but have never finished. I'll get to them soon, or at least try to. I probably have like 15 things on hold since last year. I will get them done, eventually. Or maybe not. I'll do whatever I can when

1) I find them as I finish unpacking
2) I feel like working on any of those particular pieces
3) I have alone time (cuz I dislike having like three or four people come up to me watching me over my shoulder and/or asking me "what's that" all the time)

I really need to stop starting new things before I finish the one I'm working on, but I probably will never do that. I just come up with things, start them, and then I either don't have time to do it, or don't feel like working on it so I never get back to it.

I wish I had the classes I wanted this year. It would force me to make time for my artwork, without the classes I have now that replaced those art classes to take time away from the time I would have if I didn't have these classes. O_O That was a very long sentence and I have no clue if that makes sense to anybody, but whatever. It makes sense to me

*sighs* It will be even harder to work on anything especially because second semester is coming up, and all my teachers have already warned us all that the pace will pick up and content itself will get harder. That leaves even less time than I have now. Well, maybe I will have a little more time if my schedule changes. I think my counselor said that I only need one semester of evening school. We'll see when I get my schedule for next semester.

I promise I will get back to my art. Well. I'm sure nobody here cares if I do or don't. It's more of a promise to myself. For my own sanity's sake.

AHHH.. It's been too long my dearies. The few of you that I have. >_<
So I'm back. Well not really
I've been slow on updates cuz well..sadly I haven't had time to do anything! So for a while I will just post some of my old writing stuffs as I find them as I have been, yah? alrighty then.

I hate my art. I do. I mean, sure it has SOMETHING in them. Otherwise I wouldn't do it. But. Because my art is so personal to me (as art often is to its creator) when I look back at some of my old stuff, it gives me a certain mood, depending on what the piece was about.

I mean, I guess it's good that my art can set different moods, but that's only for me. I know what my art is really about, which I don't put as descriptions or artist comments on here. Id the piece wasn't done for class, it most likely has a hidden meaning only I know is there. Even in some of the ones I do for class has special meaning to me, that's why I chose to do what I did for the project (others of course I have no choice in what I want to do).

But my art is for me. I do it cuz I felt like doing it. What I felt like doing. What I felt.
Sometimes I look back and it makes me happy, like, wow something can drive me to create something. But a lot of times it just makes me sad, for, of course, the personal story behind it all.

But ah, I guess that's just what makes my art mine. It means something to me, and that's all that matters. Anyone can appreciate my art if they'd like, but they'll never know it's true purpose/meaning/whatever, as I will never know what really lies behind any other works that belong to anybody else.


Ahhh why did they shut down for maintenance in the middle of me trying to post.
Now I have to wait. >_<
this is gunna take a while. -_-
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